My heart bleeds, and I feel so unhappy giving him all that he wanted, still, he never listened to me. I opened up my punani without any excuse, I breastfeed him with the two oranges on my chest as his bread of life but my ideas still means nothing, what kind of life is this? How come my heart feels so disheartening that each of my thoughts and feelings doesn’t count in my marriage?
Why does my spouse pretend to listen to my ideas but he wasn’t listening with his heart? I have never heard my spouse say “please” except when I try to deny him of getting down with me, “thank you “ or a kiss on my forehead spontaneously are not something I should ever dream for since we have been called mand and wife.
Oh, my spouse was the best I could ask from God while we were dating, he makes me feel so good and happy, the affection was super that it renews itself, every weekend I want him to come to pick me, we roll from bed to the bathroom, to the kitchen and we could make love anywhere in the house.
He walks around naked and I do the same these are memories I have that made me say “YES”. Thinking this is going to be forever, but now I am lonely, I need a spouse that will make me feel just the same way I was in my youthful age. Have I lost my spouse? I have lost concentration, I have lost satisfaction, am losing it altogether. I need someone to love me, I need my boyfriend again, I want to be back to the time were boyfriend and girlfriend, I want to be youthful again. …. Tearing up…….
I have suddenly become a slave, I do everything by myself, oh all by myself in the house, no helping hand, didn’t we have these beautiful kids together?
Why has it become my sole responsibility? I need my spouse back; he was the only hero I knew back in the days, oh I forgot to mention, my partner does everything for me while we were cutting, when I am washing dishes he is cleaning up the mess we both made, he washes the beddings then I lay the bed, oh no I am running out of sanity, When I ask for a helping hand he feels like I am asking for too much, he could not even think of a time to tell me to stop for a minute.
I want to be loved again, the love of the olden days, I never said I am tired of hearing him say “I love you” Why not tell me how you feel about me anymore, you love my breast and will never go to bed without my melons, my cream pies were your everyday goodnight milk, Hell no, in tears I remembered that you will never leave home without drinking your daily school milk right from my chest. Why did you forsake me, my dear boyfriend? Maybe we shouldn’t have been married so that I could keep enjoying life with you and date forever.
He never forgives me when I make mistakes, how on earth can I maintain this marriage or even sustain it?
The best conversation we ever talked about in our fifteen years of marriage is about our kids, your jobs, we hardly talk about mine.
Oh, we need to be that boyfriend and girlfriend again, we used to talk about our schoolwork, project and also about my mensural cycle, is my marriage going down the drain? We no longer talk about feelings and emotions. All I do now to calm myself is be on the social media, oh how I wish Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, WhatsApp are human, I could just be married to any of these wonderful places of relaxation where I can laugh instead of tearing up, where vibrant and good looking handsome men are willing to put a smile on me.
My love and my spouse the twins are asking for their owner, I do not enjoy being lonely, I do not wish to find a fixer for your errors on social media, I need for you and me to have a real conversation. The girls are crying for you, undress me and suck me all out, pull down my panties and let copulations begin, it been too long since I have that feeling, let my womanhood cry for help this weekend, I need our intimacy back you have ruined my sexual activity and it’s about time we fix that just between us and by ourselves.
The above is the pain of a spouse, crying for help, don’t let us get it wrong this could be a cry of a man to his spouse or a deep cry of a woman to his loving partner. We have diminished from the love, care, affection that we used to share as friends or while we were dating or perhaps cutting. Denying your spouse all you used to share or do before marriage will be a conflict in your marriage.
I want to let you know, a couple needs to sit and discuss their feelings and emotions from time to time, this will help keep a healthy family, It is also good for spouses to play and make love regularly because it helps with emotional trauma. My advice to sell your partner to social media, social media is like Vegas. Whatever that happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, But the adverse of it with social media is it does not just stay in your inner mind it becomes a label you wear, then you would have lost the grace and be left with disgrace.
If you must know marriage is ordained by God, respect it, and respect your spouse by doing what you know to do best. Until next weekend that I will be sharing something good with you for it’s going to be my birthday weekend. Why not seat on the nail and allow the womb raider to be the weapon of your ass destruction.